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2006-06-05T19:06:00.000+08:00

I read a note my grandma wrote
Back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat
And he showed it once to me
He said boy you might not understand
But a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
But I loved your grandma so

We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to
And live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were
Supposed to meet instead
I found this letter and this is what it said

*If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me

I read those words just hours before
My grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church
When me and grandpa stopped to pray
I know I'd never seen him cry
All my 15 years
But as he said these words to her
His eyes filled up with tears

2006-05-09T20:00:00.000+08:00

forgive my transgressions;

MYE is about to end, one more day!:D
but of course, the results would be another matter because, i can reassure you, that there's going to be a lot of disappointment because, I DIDN'T STUDY
there, so my mind is currently in a perpeptual whirl of confusion; i cant tell you what im thinking now because i really don't know

OH HAHA, SORRY IF MY ENGLISH IS WEIRD, ITS BEEN WEIRD FOR QUITE LONG ALR, I DONT KNOW WHERE I FOUND THE WEIRD EXPRESSIONS I USE, HOW I STRING THEM WEIRDLY, TO GIVE PEOPLE A WEIRD IMPRESSION OF ME.

and, i'm not fierce you know. I'M A NICE PERSON ;D

Hide your face from my sins
and blot out all my iniquity;

i guess, i need to think about what im going to do

2006-05-07T18:17:00.000+08:00

people are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered;
forgive them anyway

if you are kind, people may accuse you of having selfish, ulterior motives;
be kind anyway.

if you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
succeed anyway.

if you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
be honest and frank anyway.

what you spent years building, someone may destroy overnight;
build anyway.

if you find serenity and happiness, people may be jealous;
be happy anyway.

the good you do today, people often forget tomorrow;
do good anyway.

give the world the best you have and it may never be enough;
give the world the best you've got anyway.

you see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;
it was never between you and them anyway.

- Mother Teresa's Home for Children in Calcutta, India

it's been so long,
i'm struggling to express myself now, haha

somehow the constant revision part never sinks in huh

2006-03-17T18:44:00.000+08:00

i know what i do now will affect my future, so why am i sitting in front of the computer BLOGGING, instead of getting my amath weekend asignment done? dometimes i don't know what i'm doing, why i'm not doing something i should, how i'm supposed to go about doing it and where to start. there's so much i CAN DO.

AND SAM HO IS MY SOFTBALL FAN <3!
be honoured okay, i don't go around putting hearts all over the place:D

SHIT. SHITSHITSHIT.

2006-03-16T20:17:00.000+08:00

2006-03-08T18:19:00.000+08:00

hmmm, i think i really need a tagboard!
WHO WANTS TO HELP MOI!

oh, tomorrow the adam khoo ' I am Gifted, so are You' talk commences,
hope it'll be fun.
gonna bring my chemistry there, but can't decide on the next subject.
i should be bringing my weakest subject there, (chem) so what's my next weakest?
english and maths cannot bring, so that leaves physics socialstudies history biology literature.
aiyah, i shall go think later.

AND I REALLY CAN'T STAND LAONUREN'S CHINESE! AIYOH, TELLING HER OVER AND OVER AGAIN THAT NIANG MEANS MOTHER BUT NIANGZI MEANS WIFE BUT SHE REFUSES TO LET IT SINK IN, i wonder if she does it on purpose to suan us \:|

oohh, i'm not able to reply sms cos my phone bill has been (aham) two months late.
and my dad said i sent an MMS but i didn't! argh, i mean i couldn't! i tried but the sending failed, so how can i be charged? this is so spooky, or maybe i have bad memory :(

and mrs lee's talk today made me feel quite bad. i mean, aiyah, i didn't want to sell the tickets at first, but now i think i'm obliged to sell at least the $50 worth of tickets gave us. it's lying hidden in my drawer, it's time to see the world, TICKS! so, haha, if you happen to NOT be a crescentian and reading this, please buy from me. so i can rid myself my guilt early :|

alrights, everyone's back from New Zealand. i believe my brother's grown! but he's stil as skinny as ever, unlike me :( ANWS, my mom bought lots of chocolates and honey and THE MAPLE LEAVES I SPECIALLY REQUESTED FOR! apparently she had to sneak and pluck two of them from the maple tree so as not to be caught, haha :)

A dead sleep came upon me,
And from my horse I fell.

2006-03-03T20:04:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA! I MADE MY I/C TODAY! DONT NEED TO PAY FINE OR GO JAIL OR WORRY ABOUT PASSING THE DATELINE! HAHAHA!
though i must confess that the photo was quite YLEURGH, at least i got that - thing done :)

oh my oh my oh my.
the dirties class award! goes to our class.
HAHA! SO KWAN YIN MA WAS RIGHT AFTER ALL, i think we should just start listening and stop debating.

oh wells, they are back!
oops ;x

2006-03-01T16:14:00.000+08:00

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i am so smart,
my i/c is late for four months, and the government has kindly given me until friday to make my i/c but i'm feeling too lazy, maybe i should make it today, BUT. IM LAZY :( OKAY PLEASE PLEASE DONT LET ME PASS THE DEADLINE, IF NOT HAVE TO PAY FINE!

yes, jaychou is soothing.
i like him :D and his songs of course!

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dou she bu de shan
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zai nao hai li chu cun xin shang

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ni wei xiao liu lan
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shou ji li de lang man
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yuan lai zhen xin song chu ai shi zhe me jian dan
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ni ke ai de mo yang
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guan yu yuan fen de jie shi wo you duo chuan le yi hang

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yuan lai ai qing ke yi lai de zhe me tu ran
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jiang ai mei qi la chang
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wo men de gan qing man yan zi chang yong wen zi pei yang
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chao za de qing ge hai zai pin ming bo fang
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2006-02-28T17:08:00.000+08:00

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EVERYONE REJOICE! THE END OF THE EXAMS IS HERE!

weell, involved in the 8 April funfair :D
but i think i've been thinking about it too much!
i actually told someone that my birthday was on 8 April?!
my my, i must be losing my head.

And my eyes;
they have not a shred of sympathy for you.

i want to know if i'm the only one who doesn't feel like giving a - about O's NOW.
i mean, i get occassional electricity jolt back to reality (mrs goh's yammer about it helps!) but nothing substantial :(
and i think about my brother and WAHHAAHAAA MEI DE BI MANS.

try to throw the picture out of my mind,
trying to leave the memories behind.

RED NECKED LIAR! but i dont understand, why red necked?
i mean, what's the story behind it?
i really wanna know.

okay, I STINK MORE THAN A THOUSAND FART CLOUDS PUT TOGETHER :(

someone once told me this, "You cannot marry if you're not happy by yourself"
to which i was quite indignant, "Why not? Can't you be happy after marriage?"
and the person said this, "If you are not happy being single, do you think you will be happy after marriage? You may, but that will be relying on the other person to give you the happiness you need. It is not fair to your other half. Only when you can assuredly say that you're happy single, do you go ahead with marriage."
but i was thinking, if you're happy being single, why do you want to get married? i mean assuming that we get married because of love and not by pre-arranged circumstances or solely procreation. i think the statement makes sense, but on the other hand, it doesn't?! aiyah, tell me what you think on msn, share your views with me!

2006-02-27T17:04:00.000+08:00

i was being really in love with myself today, and so i typed my name into yahoo and OMGOSH WHAT DID I FIND!

An ancestor of He Shouwu, who lived in the district of Nanhe in Xunzhou, was originally named He Tianer...He was born impotent [meaning, he couldn't bear children] and had turned to drinking wine...Thereupon, Tiener sifted out a fine powder of the drug and took it with wine...I [the old man at the beginning of this story] have received this from my teacher [the Buddhist priest] who was told about it in Nanhe. Taking it helped me, also, to father children. Originally, I preferred peace of mind, and under no circumstances did I want to take this drug, because it is harmful to peace of mind [this refers to its stimulation of sexual desire]. My spouse took it accidentally and we attained the greatest happiness. Subsequently, I recorded all the effects of the drug for Tiener, and I changed his name to Nengzi [capable of begetting].

WHAT THE -?!

tomorrow is the dreaded amath and history paper!
and i can't keep my hands off the com :(
okays, im not bathed yet! AHHH, SMELLY.

2006-02-26T17:33:00.000+08:00

HAHA! THE SOFTBALL FAMILY TREE :D

FATHER KRIS sounds like some pastor, but anyhow!

TUESDAY GOT HISTORY AND AMATH COMMON TEST!
ohmy. i am so tired!

and here i am lazing about when im supposed to be revising!
MY MY MY, GO BACK GO BACK!

2006-02-25T19:56:00.000+08:00

it's been only four days! but i already feel it :( SIGHS.

let me follow the usual style of blogging, by telling everyone what i did today! surprising that i can even remember! (btw, my typing is atrocious, though of course you can't see it because i'm busy backspacing and retyping all my errors! awfully tiring.) today had the last game for the zonals! whoo! one more week of rest then its back to SRC, hmmm :) :( ? anws, i like RGS! OKAY, HOW DO I PUT IT. i don't really like them? but i like their attitude? cos, they are really gracious winners. but of course, on the field, i forget i like them. but after the game, i kind of admire their spirit that game is game, you still can mix and be friendly to the opponent after the game. so, it's very different from another strong team i have seen, so yah, i quite like them, off the field.

i'm trying out the paragraph kind of blogging but my finger keeps hovering over the Enter button after every, uhm, train of thought or something.

then went to FENGHUI's youth service at Cuppage Plaza, i'm sorry for being so ulu, but i really didnt know where the - the place was, haha. then found out STEF and HANNAH attend the same church! haha, so brought my HUI along but i guess bad timing. we were both tired, from the morning match and goodness know what. thus, while the music was groovy and everyhting, we just stood woodenly, reading the lyrics flashing on the screen. anyways, i had a bruise so cannot jump cos it'll feeling like a bag of nerves being aggravated with each hop :(

FENGHUI XIONG DA WU NAO, should be changed to FENGHUI BIAN XIONG WU NAO! so now body and books all don't have! HAHA!

okays, i'm feeling woozy already.

2006-02-22T18:13:00.000+08:00

it's different. just very different from the feeling i had all the past three years, where is my drive? my passion? my agression? not that i had lots to start with but at least i had SOME. i've been asking myself a basic question and was surprised that i couldn't come up with an answer. i guess sometimes you get so desensitized, that you know the model answer at the back of your hand to whatever question that is being thrown at you. BUT DO YOU REALLY MEAN WHAT YOU SAY? OR ARE YOU JUST REGURGITATING WHATEVER THAT YOU THOUGHT WAS THE CORRECT STATEMENT? so what if my potential is only this? what if the truth is that i can't? suddenly, it feels so weird, i can't put my finger on it.

i hope i find my answer soon. funny but when i heard the supposing drastic news, i didn't feel panic at all. i felt so indifferent and cold and just isolated. i don't know what's going through my mind now, either there's nothing in there now, or there's too much i'm confused with that i can't even tell you what's inside my brain.

i know You will help me, but i'm still feeling sore.

teach us to number our days, that we might have wise hearts;
grass withers, flowers will fade, your Word alone will last.

2006-02-21T19:17:00.000+08:00

wtf, wtfwtfwtfWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTWFTWFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF, F, F, F, F, F, F, F!
WTF IS WRONG?!

i don't know, i don't know what's the problem
i can just see the effects of that problem
i know what it concerns,
and how it can bring everything crashing down,
and where it lies,
but why? remains a blank.

don't want to sound like a complain queen but everything seems to be screwing up now.
EVERYTHING. ANYTHING. AHHHHHHHHHH.

i really have nothing to say now, except that
i'm drinking YEO's Japanese Green Tea without Sugar and it is quite ugh.
i've received an sms stating the obvious,
i'm still in my jersey,
AND I'M FEELING FKING PISSED,
COS I'VE ZHUOWEN, YINGYONGWEN, LIJIEWENDA, COMPREHENSION, REVISION,
IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY.
maybe with enough luck, i'll be pronounced insane before i go into the other half of the year where everything will be going on twice as fast as now and then i can enter a mental hospital with absolutely no worries about \\\\\///// and even if people are being sacarstic mean irritating absurb or just plain moronic i'll not be able to hear, or i wont even care! isn't that good.

another thing to yabber about.
you want to say something right?
say in to the person's face.
you don't want to say in front is bad enough, you say behind the person's back LAH.
BUT NO, THIS ISN'T THE CASE.
YOU JUST SAY IN FRONT OF THE PERSON, WITH YOUR FMOUTH COVERED.
WTF?! ARE WE BLIND? TELL ME ARE WE BLIND.
i can understand if it's a joke, or playplay.
but it's very clear it isn't.
SO YOU WANNA TALK LIKE THT, HIDE BEHIND SOMETHING LAH. BUT YOU COVER YOUR MOTUH AND SAY LIKE THAT, IT PISSES ME OFF. IT DARN WELL PISSES ME OFF SO FING MUCH.

SHUT UP, JUST FING SHUTUP.

hoo, that was satisfying.
it's not that i mean to jabber Like that all over my blog,
littering my entry liberally with 'f's but i'm rrly >:/ now
don't worry, it doesn't last.

not for long anyways.

2006-02-13T19:29:00.000+08:00

i don't profess to holyholyholy and being able to love thy neighbour as thyself or keeping to the do not judge for you will be judged rule.
i guess i can't help but form first impressions, and i am awfully glad most of them are wrong.
but somehow, it doesn't stop, so i'm trying my bestest not to be so presumptious but, i just can't help myself.
so maybe you were put in my life for a reason, maybe you're an example for me to follow.
but, i'm being a horribly stubborn person here by not appreciating it.

i just, don't know how to face you.

SIGHS!

wahpiangz manx 2molo vdaez so happie!!
i going 2 m4k3 a lot o prezzie 4 my frenz and U!
my b<3ed U, i wan make u happie 4 the rest of ur life w moi!
so 2molo specialz dae 4 us, U muz come 2 our special place!!
i muz see U dere! canot b late if not i kill U!!
but, i canot kill U coz U moi darling deardear RYT!

gosh, it is hard.

i shall abandon this crazy attempt to write in the above style.

2006-02-03T16:32:00.000+08:00

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2006-02-03T16:11:00.000+08:00

i really don't get it, is saying WHATEVER coupled with ROLLING EYE the new in thing among the young people, as in the really young (pri sch) ??!!
EEEEUUUURRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHH

have decided to make full use of the two day mc the doctor has given me, so here i am whiling my time away :D
heard from vanya that our personal storage place has been converted into the class changing room :(
aww, hae to find new space liao!

AHHH, FELICIA IS TELLING ME ALL THE HMK WE HAVE. OH SHOOT, ALL MY BOOKS IN SCHOOL LEH HOW?! AIYAH! WHY SO CHUM.

OKAYS.nvm, tmrw trng can go pick it up,
playing some online game now
seriously have no hand eye coordination.
and cannot play properly cos once i get nervous, i cannot function, haha

2006-02-02T09:30:00.000+08:00

well, yes, i'm sick!
boohoo :(
and i completed all my hmk too! argh, all my effort.
it's so boring now.
i only have my dripping mucus and wracking coughs for amusement,
i shan't dramatize my 'suffering' though it really isn't a particularly enjoyable feeling cos there's pleanty out there with real diseases killing them but they're bearing it each day with a smile, and can still help others. they take each day at a time, thankful that they can wake up each morning to experince a brand new day. they think nothing of helping others in need, because they understand the pain that is felt and
SO, you get my point.

I MET WEI! :D
AWWW, MISSED YOU!
haha, talked quite a bit about o's and stuff.
i think i've found my direction! BEAMS-

hmmm, should i go for bs today?
aye, such a tough decision, i shall go mull over it.

2006-01-28T15:59:00.000+08:00

FULL HOUSE :D

it's really different when you watch it in korean then when it's being tranaslated to chinese,
i prefer the korean one, haha
but anws, delia has kindly opened her house for me to watch the show, THANKYOU!
awww, fullhouse is really nice.

preparing reunion dinner with siti, mom and sis.
did the minor chores like testing the steamboat, shredding carrots and radish for the yusheng, peeling dang-ou (sam lim!)
AND THEN MOVING THIS HUGE TELEVISION FROM MY HOUSE TO THE CAR :/
okay, my brother did most of it while i just 'cleared' the way for him, haha
never laugh when you're carrying smth heavy, or someone near you is,
cos it sends the other person into fits and convulsions and SO, TAKES AWFULLY LONG BECOS OF ALL THE PUTTING DOWNS AND STOPITS

ahh, slamdunk, :D

2006-01-25T20:20:00.000+08:00

AYE I BORROWED FULL HOUSE THEN DISCOVERED MY HOUSE COM HAS NO VCD DRIVE THINGY! ARGH, SMART NENGZI, VERY SMART!
this is sosososososososososo FRUSTRATING!

i've got homework to do but what i want to do is just to laze about. ms ho says those who dont do the emath notebook page 12 & 13 will have to stand behind, i dont want! so i have to go do, BUT I DONT WANT AGAIN! AYE AYE AYEAYEAYE.

JOHN 1:40-42

Andrew, Simon Peter's brother, was one of the two who heard what John had said and who had followed Jesus. The first thing Andrew did was to find his brother Simon and tell him, "We have found the Messiah" (that is, the Christ). And he brought him to Jesus.

Maybe the hardest thing a teen can do is to witness to family. Especially if it's to unsaved parents. Look at how Andrew witnessed. He didn't try to argue about the Bible or try to get his brother to go to church. He simply shared his own experience of having met Jesus. You don't have to convince your family of anything. Just follow Jesus yourself and talk naturally about what he means to you. God and the Holy Spirit will do the rest.

KOPED FROM THE TEEN STUDY BIBLE ONE, NOT I WRITE ONE! but all the same, i thought it was good so that if anyone, a random passer-by, a friend a cousin etc is stumped by the issue of witnessing, like i was, may find this useful :D

anw, shall go now, JAYCHOU! ;D

2006-01-24T17:24:00.000+08:00

AYE I HAVE THIS WEIRD HABIT OF STUDYING AFTER TESTS!
but found out vanya's got the same habit, so, anyhow, HI-FIVE :D

ahh, i want to watch full house!
borrowing delia's to watch, haha THANKS!
wanted to buy, cos the price drop to ard 30 bucks
but felicia advised me to wait somemore until the price is really really low.
but by then, I WOULD HAVE DIED WAITING XD
okay, not so kua zheng, but yah.
I THINK SONG HAYE GYO IS SO SO SO PRETTY!!

softball was really really painful
ZESA and RACHEL LAU have absolutely POWERFUL PITCHERS,
if you get what i mean, haha

aye, CHATTING! :D

2006-01-20T15:53:00.000+08:00

aye, was in charge of today's lunch
found out a MAJOR FLAW!
there was no drinks, and as people around me know, i am not in the habit of bringing waterbottles to school
so, MAYBE NEXT TIME I'D BRING SOFTDRINKS :D
heh heh, shld be concentrating on studies instead of all these insignificant BLAHS.

i've improved on hmk :)
so far so good, my amath assignments quite on time,
gotta see how long it lasts, hope it isn't to short :x

in the lab with fel now, realised she actually had a bollock!
haha, must remember to add her.

some nice TA lent me her tablet so i could go on msn,
wasted really, everyone's at school now!
anyhow, shall just keep it on till someone signs on then i'll have a nice long chat :)

aye, IM TIRED.
SOMEONE IS SO SENSITIVE LEH.
AIYAH DONT BE SO PETTY LAH, I PROMISE I WONT DISTURB YOU AGAIN!

2006-01-19T21:34:00.000+08:00

we are officially starting a recess-and-lunch time buffet club in 4S2 :D
the plan is for two people to be in charge for lunch and recess over alternate days,
haha, was discussing the 'mission' of the 'club' today with other group members.
HAHA, OUR AIM WILL BE TO CONVRERT THE SPACE BESIDE MY TABLE TO A KITCHEN! COMPLETE WITH FRYING PANS, CROCKERY, FRIDGE, STOVE AND FOODS LIKE FISH VEG ETC.
OUR VISION WILL BE TO COOK FOR THE WHOLE SCHOOL! HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA.

okay, i made the mission and vision statement up be myself, but still,
it was super fun thinking up some weird possible but stupid ideas to ease the stress building in our (my) puny brain

aye, got to finish 15.2 before 11 if not really really cannot wake up like today :(

2006-01-17T16:07:00.000+08:00

Do not stand at my grave and weep-
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry-
I am not there. I did not die.

this is a really beautiful poem,
when i read it a few months ago it touched a deep chord within me,
i nearly -.

haha, anw.
i like S.H.E's tian hui :D
the first few lines had me TRIPLE SNORTING
but the chorus was WAH SHIOK AH!
HMM, why on earth am i talking like some coffeeshop uncle?!
beats me, sighs-

I DID SOMETHING REALLY STUPID TODAY! I BROUGHT MY MP3 SO I COULD LISTEN TO TIAN HUI BUT GUESS WHAT I FORGOT? THE BLASTED EARPHONES! I FOUND OUT WHEN SCHOOL ENDED AND WAS SITTING THERE FOR QUITE A WHILE PONDERING ON MY APPARENT LACK OF BRAIN CELLS :(

hmm, DG is at 8pm today :(
ohno, it's virtually impossible to reach home, bathe and sleep before ten.
THIS IS A MAJOR DISASTER, IM SLEEPING LIKE AT 11 ALMOST EVERYNIGHT!
uhm, and i find that i'm absolutely incapable of taking short naps of like, 15 mins
i will fall into a deep sleep at four, wake up at eight, then start to do work.
SO RUBBISH.

2006-01-13T17:59:00.000+08:00

cca day,
the sec 3s made such cute hand swen softballs that i simply had to steal one home
thanks for sewing In-y! :D
guides baked cookies,
but silly petrina covered the basket once i beckoned to her
apparently she didn't want me eating her cookies NO FAIR!
ANW, HAHA I GOT TO TASTE THE HOCKEY'S ONES :)
theirs were really nice, alot like famous amos

it wasn't too exciting so i came back home first.

supposed to do hmk, cos everything's been pilling up due to my laziness
but really, i need to do i want to do but i cant do :(

aye, have to fork out alot alotalotalotalot of money this few weeks
can you believe that i've spent all my pocket money on school items?!
okay, well not all of it on school, but most of it ;)

there's trng tmrw,
and COACH IS BACK :D
haha, it seems like ages since he last came to coach us,
tho prolly it's just been like a month or smth,
awwwwwwwww.

there below; weeds spilling wild in every direction

2006-01-12T22:16:00.000+08:00

YAY, AMATH GRAPHS ARE DONE!
AIN'T THAT A SUPER DUPER MEGA WATT SUPER SONIC ACHIEVEMENT?!

aww, but the rest of the qns not done yet!
this is strange, past years i'd give sleep priority above anything else
but now, NOW I AMAZE MYSELF BY LETTING MYSELF STAY UP OVER 10 TO DO BLOODY HMK.
but one thing hasn't changed for sure, i still take time out for blogging :D

i've still got to plough through two SBQ qns for ss
AND IT'S BACK TO MY COMFY BED AND DREAMS, YAY :)

ahh, still have physics prac graph havent draw!
the english comprehension havent do!
emaths matrix worksheet havent complete!
history SEQ qn never research!

WOW, i have lots and lots of things to do.
and it's killing me :(

but there's always tmrw to look forward to!
there's the cca day so there'll be lots of giving out of souvenirs etc
we'll be wearing our jersey and black shorts (yes, only black shorts. quote, zesa)

aye, better finish before 11 if not tmrw sure cannot wake up :(

2006-01-11T20:04:00.000+08:00

okay, this is so hfvjfevner of me.
i rslly am very busy but i needed a place to scribble so,
here.

jtgijaenbaenbentbnetbnaetbnaerbneitnbietbntnbtibntinbernblearbkemblkeblk feeling so queasy now lah dvjawnvjanwvjawrnvjnarwvnervnernv it's the most unwelcomed DAY of the MONTH. aye, im so busy busybusybusy. but still i dont want to do my workworkwork. i want to relax :D which is vitrually impossible mr loh lah! want the 19.1 and 19.2 by tomorrow and the worst thing is that my calculator is not with me just when i needed it the most. NAHNAHNAHNAHNAHNAHNAHNAH, JUST FOUND OUT THE CLASS FUND HAS $10 MISSING! OH NO SHUCKS GOSH WHAT SHOULD I DO?! aye, think i'll just have to make it up :'( graphs are the most idiotic thingies in the world and i hate to draw them, it drives me nuts x( feeling like a dead fish now. can't even lift my finger to push the enter button in order to seperate all these points into nice neat pargraphs with topic sentences, evidences/quote, and elaboration/substantiation. YAWN. snort sneeze BAH WOOT. oh, the concept of the number PHI in The Da Vinci Code is quite interesting. all the symbolism and the linkages you can make really just amazes me. but i mean, connections can be made in a mulitude of ways so how can you prove it is really right instead of just being a coincidence. anw, shall pour out my views on Dan Brown's book in another post.

aye, CRAZY ABOUT CHINESE SONGS AGAIN X)

2006-01-11T18:14:00.000+08:00

THERE ISN'T A LOT OF THINGS TO SAY EXCEPT THAT I REALLY HAVE TO DO MY SS HMK AMATH HMK ENG HMK PHY HMK CME TARGET SETTING CLASS FUND ACCOUNTS SO I SHALL SIGN OFF YOURS TRULY

2006-01-10T21:49:00.000+08:00

AHHH, I HAVENT GOT THE REALLY SOUR SWEETS YET!

how, gosh.
i'm gonna doze off during lessons again :(
haha, hope delia gets enough sleep,
and for people to stop bullying her x)
she's so fierce and unkind and nasty to me on a daily basis,
yet she lets other people take advantage of her,
SO UNBELIEVABLE.
haha, okay lah, she's nice.

the wonders a jacket can do!

2006-01-09T20:44:00.000+08:00

well, just starting to get a feel of what school life will be like in the coming months
definitely not a very enjoyable one,
but ohwell, we go through life only once.

i'm really trying to keep all my bad habits in check.
like not neglecting my hmk, which i have currently failed in.
amath 19.1 still remains to be done,
and 19.2 has alr been given.
SO, WELL DONE MAN.
sigh, it really isn't easy.

anw, on a brighter note,
me and delia have decided that the best way to keep awake in class is to,
you tell me.

POP SOUR SWEETS IN URE MOUTH.

or...

LET THE DOOR BANG UNEXPECTEDLY NEAR YOU JUST WHEN YOU'RE ABOUT TO DOZE OFF.

obviously, we chose the former :D

haha, gonna shop for SOUR SWEETS.
have to be really sour tho, for else it won't work.

2006-01-04T21:16:00.000+08:00

well, delia and i have lots of things in common
haha, but it's not the good things, it's the BAD.
SNORTS. but it's really funny.
anw, we're still partners :D
cos she smartly told mdm kwan i was about her height -.-
which i am like, totally not!
but, anw, she's smart lah

oh, and found out we didn't do our lit project.
okay, not exactly found out, but realised.
haha, so got to do lorhxz

oh, i havent blogged about the new year's eve dinner.
HAHA, CHICKEN LITTLE DANCE :D
it was hilarious man,
our table was playing some game where you have to pick a theme,
like, letsay, movies.
then you think up of a movie, write it down, and the person has to act it out.
clearly, those who don't go for movies stuck out quite obviously.
then the fireworks!
i had to go toliet at the crucial moment, ARGH.
by the time i went out, the balcony was crowded with people going ooohhh and ahhhh at every burst of colour in the black sky.
so i just had to stand on the steps and hope to ctach some of the action :(
frankly, it was a pretty sight, spectacular and everything.
but i didn't really enjoy it as much as when i was in primary school watching the NDP rehersal.
and i'm not referring to how much more gorgeous the fireworks were then, or that there were much more screams and shouts.
most of the time, it's the company.

can't seem to get into the right frame of mind during lessons.
still crap and joke alot when it's class.
and delia doesn't help x)
haha, okay, she does, but i don't listen.

anw, i borrowed Dan Brown The Da Vinci Code
cool ryt? so intellectual.
okay, so it isn't really.
but still, it's quite interesting.
VERY, actually.
so much so delia had to chide me 8394729010478 times to eh, stop reading, listen!

:P

2006-01-02T16:09:00.000+08:00

what a grrrreat way to start school with a screwedd haircut.
wow, SIMPLY BRILLIANT, FANTASTIC, SUPERB.

can you see the story in her calloused palms;
the dreams in his wrinkled face.

ooh hoo ooh, school's atrting tomorrow!
haha, looking forward to seeing my friends :)
but the hols hmk,
i prefer not to mention :P

you don't know what you've got till it's gone

OMGOSH, i haven't bought my school books :(
i don't want to buy in school,
later kena scolded by the book shop auntie
ni men mei ci dou zhe yang - you all always like that -
nian di bu yao mai, kai xue cai mai! - don't want to buy during holiday, want to buy when school start! -
so -

aye.

2005-12-31T15:31:00.000+08:00

Uh huh, extra cheese
Uh huh, uh huh, save a piece for me

Pizza party at your house
I went just to check it out,
nineteen extra larges,
What a shame, no one came,
Just us, eating all alone,
You said take the pizza home,
No sense letting all this go to waste
But then I faced

Pizza all day, and everyday, there's cheese round the clock,
It's getting me blocked, and I sure don't care, for irregularity

Tell me, why did you have to go and make me so concstipated,
Cos right now I'd do anything just to get my bowels evacuated
In the bathroom, I sit and I wait and I strain and I sweat and I clench and I feel the pain,
Oh, should've taken laxatives or had my colon irrigated
No, no, no

I was feeling pretty down
Till my girlfriend came around
We're just so alike in everyway, I gotta say
In fact, I just thought I might,
Pop the question there that night
I was kissing her so tenderly
But woe is me.

Who would have guessed, her family crest,
I suddenly spied, tattooed on her thigh
And son of a gun, its just like the one on me
Tell me.

How was I supposed to know we were both related?
Believe me, if I ever knew she was my cousin we never would have dated
What to do now?
Should I go ahead and propose and get hitched and have kids with eleven toes
And move to Alabama where that kind of thing is tolerated
No, no, no

I had so much on my mind
I thought maybe I'd unwind
Try out that new roller coaster ride
And the guide

Said not to stand but that's a demand, that I couldn't meet,
I got on my feet and stood up instead
And knocked off my head you see
Tell me

Why'd I have to go and get myself decapitated
I gotta tell ya, life without a head kinda makes me irritated
What a bummer
I can't blink I can't cough I can't sneeze
But my neck is enjoying a pleasant breeze now
Haven't been the same since me and my head were separated.
No, no, no.

haha, this song really makes me laugh everytime i listen to it.
apparently, it's been out for more than a year,
but i only heard it recently.
WHAT A BUMMER.
see, see how ulu i am :(

anw, some test said my color was red.
like, NO. i don't like red?!
aye, i guess you don't always like who you really are :(

Red
Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice ‚Äî impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied. Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.

okay, there's way too much sad faces so i shall post smth happy.
TODAY IS THE DAY WE GET TO PIG OUT, again,
BUT, ANYHOW, IT IS ENJOYABLE TO EAT, isn't it?
the dinner's being held at The Neptune, hmm.
it's raining now, wonder if it's gonna be okay.

gosh, i suddenly feel lonely

2005-12-30T08:18:00.000+08:00

there was so much leftover from the barbeque that we're having steak and chops in the morning,
wow. so luxurious x)

hmm, ARPC's new year's eve dinner tmrw.
MUST REMEMBER NOT TO BINGE NOT TO BINGE NOTTOBINGE :(
YAY, ness is coming :D
haven't seen her for such a looong time

i miss waritta, and rachellau and bernette :(

xiaoyuan brought the oreo cheesecake she made over
it was like, VERY NICE YUMMY DELICIOUS HEAVENLY ETC.
WOW, she can go open her first cake shop
i'll be first in line :D
but she said smth really funny,
that you shld marry a hcjc guy, HAHA.

and sam said i was smart, HAHA.
i told her to tell delia that, cos she's always preventing me from getting credit for my smartness
haha, see, people can appreciate real talent x)

2005-12-29T14:21:00.000+08:00

well, he bbq.
of course, NONE of my friends came
so thankyouverymuchman
i did the bbq-ing with korkor
and found out he had minimal knowledge of these kind of things.
HAHA:D
but still, very bang!
had a lot of help from his friends,
whoa, really, role models, gotta learn from them.

aye, just found out we are supposed to help in the orientation:)
haha, it's so FUN.
and we get to skip class for two hours.
heh heh heh, i like:D

2005-12-27T09:34:00.000+08:00

oh, smth really funny happened ystd.

we were in the car, and my dad was trying to explain that he really wasn't stressed,
so this was the conversation, the most accurate version closest to the real one.

dad: when i say i'm not relaxed, hat dosen't mean i'm stressed
mom: ...(unimportant stuff, the usual)
we: (mostly not paying attention, just doing our own thing.)

there was a period i cldn't recall what we were doing, then suddenly...

dad: i'm not stressed like a lump of...
we: (starting to take interest.)
dad: STARCH...FLOUR...DOUGH!
we: (legs in the air!)

haha, i mean, stressed like a lump of STARCH, FLOUR, DOUGH.
like wth, my dad cldn't find a good similie so he invented one?!
so weird, stressed like a lump of starch.
wahlau eh, weird siah

2005-12-27T09:01:00.000+08:00

YAWN.
ive been sleeping late and waking up even later in the hols,
wonder what i'd do when school reopens.
and i'm seriously tired nowwwwwwwww.

ohwell, the BBQ.
whah, silly me.
i was too lazy to invite anyone so i shall dedicate myself to helping out.
i shall not socialize or play host or yadah.
and because there's prolly no one there i know, besides my cousin (don't play play ah, this one top student you knows)
i don't think there'll be much to chat abt.
SO, AREN'T I SMART. I SHALL SMS INSTEAD!
haha, okay, this is really, lame:(

its only now that i experience what they call: networking,
whooo. i see.
so this is the way you build relationships for future
whoa, never expected that.

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE:D
there's just so much to eat, so much tod o
and its time to put on weight and gain that extra 10 kilos:(
haha, heck, just enjoy

so which would you choose?
the one who loves you
or the one you love?

2005-12-24T05:42:00.000+08:00

okay, it isn't fun anymore:(

anws, ate lunch with my brother
TSK. really TSK.
then went to the fruit shop nearby my dad's office
and that LADY. THAT LADY AH.
SHE CALLED ME XIAODI OKAY.
wahlau,
its been so long since someone called me THAT.
and its not like i cut my supershort hairstyle,
mine is below my ear OKAY!!
haiyah, she can't see the normal bodyshape meh.
tsk, i was wearing my PADDED BRA.
she's blind.
so i decided to forgive her, since her fruits are quite cheap:D

oh, chatted with pam a.k.a NENGZI'S EX-PARTNER ystd.
haha, see SHE MISSES ME:D
go read her blog (at the links there) and you'll see that...
she's regreting all the times she bullied me before
HEH. see, im so priceless.
anws, she's still as chio and sexy and yadah as before
I LUBBXZXZX CHEWWWXZXZ PAM!
hahaha:)

oh, and before felicia gets the wrong idea.
i lubx chew doesn't mean i really love Chew.
gosh, some people are really picky on the words:P

2005-12-23T16:11:00.000+08:00

im bored, im seriously bored.

and blogger's timing is so screwed:(

"Now you see," said the turtle, drifting back to thhe pond, "why it is useless to cry. Your tears do not wash away your sorrows. They feed someone else‚Äôs joy. And that is why you must learn to swallow your own tears."

The pain of the flesh is nothing. The pain you must forget. Because sometimes that is the only way to remembr what is in your bones. You must peel off your skin, and that of your mother, and her mother before her. Until there is nothing. No scar, no skin, no flesh.

- An-mei Hsu

I was strong. I was pure. I had genuine thoughts inside that no one could see, that no one could ever take away from me. Iwas like the wind.

I smile. I use my American face. That's the face Americans think is Chinese, the one they cannot understand. But inside I am becoming ashamed. I am ashamed because she is ashamed. Becuase she is my daughter and I am proud of her, and I am her mother but she is not proud of me.

- Lindo Jong

And I want to tell her this: We are lost, she and I, unseen and not seeing, unheard and not hearing, unknown to others.

When my daughter looks at me, she sees a small old lady. That is because she sees only with her outside eyes. She has no chuming, no inside knowing of things. If she had chuming, she would see a tiger lady. And she would have careful fear.

- Ying-ying

oh, the bbq on the 28th.
anyone wants to come
RSVP by this weekend:)

2005-12-23T09:50:00.000+08:00

gosh, people with long legs are all over the place
long legs are good for running bases.
like qixuan,
just leaping with her long legs enables her to cover such long distances.
hnnh, im so jealous:(

and since i have a phone now,
zesa can start sms-ing me
instead of always calling my house, my dad, my mom, my dad's office x)
haha, first time zesa did it, i was like O.O
so scary,
she everything also know one!

AND MY BAD HABIT OF BITING NAILS SUPER SHORT IS BACK!
ahhhhh,
and i was biting and biting until i finally noticed what i was doing.
argh, must go eat carrots.
i heard its essential for fast growing nails
haha, i'll try and let everyone know.
now my right middle finger has ugly shaped nails
and my right index finger is morphing into that soon :(

and what's wrong with my blog's timing?!
its bizarre,
and extremely, irritating

2005-12-22T08:36:00.000+08:00

back from lunch with daddy:)
guess i've eaten too much white rice in my life
think im suffering an aversion to rice
when i take a bite of the 'white fluffy grains, sweet and whole',
it tastes weird,
and i don't know why.
but of course, the roast duck and duntang can manage lah:D

then while we were eating, two of us,
the laobanniang suddenly turned and smile at him
i was like ? and my dad was momentarily ?!
after the initial stage,
i was sure it was VERY GOOD customer service
but NO, man's ego very big one
my daddy was so convinced she was making eyes at him
"that's why your mother so worried."

HNNH! wahlau, sometimes, i cannot stand my dad.

OH, i looked up 'nengzi'in yahoo or google i can't remember
and there's someone called zhang nengzi
she's some sales manager
her email is nengzi@yahoo.com i think
OMG. i thought my name was unique.
cos, you know, every so often,
people pronounce my name wrongly -ahem.

2005-12-21T10:54:00.000+08:00

follow me everything is alright
i'll be the one to tuck you in at night
and if you wanna leave i can guarantee
you won't find nobody

else like me.

whoa, i'm not a night person
i can't stand past 10pm
if not, i'll konk out
i was trying so hard to prop my eyes open
amazing. SOME PEOPLE are owls

computers are so not my thing.
you can see me cross-eyed and WHAAAATTTT???
whenever someone mentions some strnge sounding jargon
haha, runaway man.

if you create heimongmong
they will be hulihudu

2005-12-19T11:21:00.000+08:00

it's funny how when i look back
it seems like i had so much energy to think about all those things but not my studies, and now when i really want to study, i feel so sapped.
i don't know what i want,
but i guess it's better to follow my parents because they've been through everything and they're most probably correct.
i guess i want to get into a good JC too, but why does it seem so hard just to rectify all the problems i've built up all these years?
i guess consistency is something i never had, that's why its so hard now to correct.
makes me think of nanyang's dental slogan: a few minutes of care is better than an hour of repair
how true, but i never really took it seriously.

almost everyone i know has an ambition, but i just can't seem to find mine.
my dad said its not that i can't find one, its just that im afraid of committment.
its true, really.
im a strange person that doesn't want to let go, but still unwilling to commit.
i don't want to quit school yet i don't try to do well,
its dangerous isn't it.

and i make promises i can't keep.

and i can't fulfill my reponsibilities.
ms neo is so going to kill me next year when im treasurer.
gosh, i FAILED maths.
HELLO?! how can i keep track of the accounts?
may is like good at maths yet she still gets HHHHRRRRMMMMPPPHHHH-ed my everyone:<
next year, if the class doesn't hate me i'll hate myself
which is next to impossible cos im very forgetful so all the worksheets will be late and everyone will go "NNEEEEEEEENNNNNGGGGGGG ZIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII" instead of "MMMMAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY"
siah lah, lucky im not class key holder too, if not darn jiat lat man.

ARGH, this is so unlike me to yammer on so much
see how many 'i guess' i've used up there
BAH, ALL OF THE ABOVE IS THOSE SELF-PITYINGS NOTHINGS I GET WHEN IM FEELING USELESS.
those are the exaggerations,
so you should know im like the gou zai dui in taiwan that follows all the stars and exaggerate everything i see into big blow-up news.

HAHAHA, I SHALL BE A GOU ZAI DUI MEMBER.
my future career:)

2005-12-17T17:17:00.000+08:00

tsk, where is the verdana font that i wanted?!
argh, it's not nice.

anws, HAHAHAHAHA.
just discovered, remembered really, that the lit essays are to be handed in on different dates
the first one is 6 jan so i have a considerable amount of time to do my work
and i finished my eng essay 'flight'
gorilla ever said that always choose the one-word topic cos 'it's stupid not to'
wells, i've taken his advice.

aye, i havent bought my books lehhss.

coach colin didn't come today:(
argh, i need him to see my batting

2005-12-17T02:15:00.000+08:00

year
2006
may
be
just
another
year
of
failing
amaths
physics
chemistry
emaths
biology
history
socialstudies
literature
chinese
english

OR,
IT
MAY
MEAN
A
NEW
START
A
NEW
BEGINNING
A
TIME
TO
EMBARK
ON
SERIOUS
MUGGING
SO
OFFERS
WOULD
START
POURING
IN
INVITING
YOU
TO
PICK
THEM
AS
THE
JUNIOR
COLLEGE
OFF
YOUR
CHOICE

which do you choose.

2005-12-15T15:00:00.000+08:00

trying to rush my hols hmk again
it happens every year:(
i'll be doing it diligently at the start of november
and then suddenly all the rush of activities will rush over me
and when i finally catch my breath,
BOOM!
school's just round the corner.

WHERE'S THE JUSTICE TELL ME WHERE IS THE JUSTICE!!!

haha, actually i've no one to blame but myself.
so i'll just continue to sit in front of this lightbox
finishing my five lit essays:(

2005-12-11T17:31:00.000+08:00

missing kirt and patwick already.
and my group:D
felicia (the brainy ass know it all who is adorably cute)
farzanah (the sensible pretty mature one still lame enough to understand my jokes)
peggy (our china import: smart cute funny who makes grunting noises)

yes, of course there's
xinying lily lin zhengyao and rebecca
as well as seb and ian.

brit council, aye.

SCHOOL IN LIKE TWO WEEKS!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
my homework;)
delia doesn't seem to believe me eh?
hmms, pian ni you qian na meh?
haha, oh well.

2005-12-08T19:30:00.000+08:00

patwick and kirt: the difference.
that was what i wanted to blog about.
but today's the last day, with patwick that is, so have decided to be nice.
patwick was nice, really.
of course, ignoring his rolling-eyes-head-in-hands-"God." actions
he has this annoying habit of asking "are you alright?" when there's nothing wrong!
okay, he is nice though (in his own way)

tomorrow is the last with kirt:(
I SAW HIM :D
the class got patwick a card
so i'll get kirt a card tomorrow:)

2005-12-07T20:52:00.000+08:00

HELLO!
IT'S ME!

2005-12-07T20:02:00.000+08:00

yyyyyyyyyyoooooooooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuu'''''''rrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
bittersweet

2005-12-03T16:04:00.000+08:00

arghs.
i'm really deproving huh?
aye, dunch know what to do lehhhhhhhhhhssssssss.
i need to talk to someone now.
this disappointment is too great for me to take!
haha, not really.
beats the feeling of having your coach shouting insults half a field away in sec one doesn't it?
hooohooo, coach is really patient.
he went through my batting swing and corrected it completely.
so now i realise that all the three years i've been batting with a WRONG swing.
i bet anyone would have been darn frustrated by my stupidness.
i just couldn't do it okay.
but he was there repeating the same instructions with comments and demonstrations thrown in so often.
whoa, this man has got perservererance.
he's really good.

2005-11-28T19:43:00.000+08:00

FIRST MATCH SINCE SEASON ENDED THIS YEAR
FIRST LESSON AT BRIT COUNCIL

ah, i'm tired to the bone

played second base
like wth? i was so shocked
it was a weird line up for infield
then the outfield not very unusual lah
but batting was 'orrible

mr kirk is nice
his name is weird

URGH, my thoughts are in a disjointed heap

2005-11-21T19:03:00.000+08:00

just found out how disgustingly useless i was
i had to learn how to operate the washing machine
it really freaks me out with all the sudden jerks and strange hummings
then the water will suddenly come splashing out and i'm still rushing for the detergent
whoa,
and it's dinner time and i'm supposed to HEAT it up, not cook only heat
but i'm so lazy now i don't feel like doing it
so maybe my siblings will go hungry

THIS IS SO UNLIKE THE USUAL RESPONSIBLE ME ISN'T IT? nope, nononononono. i shall go fufil my duties, soon.

2005-11-20T19:29:00.000+08:00

i am in a FEROCIOUS mood now, because i can't REMEMBER what i wanted to say. IT ALWAYS HAPPENS TO ME. like when i'm busy, all i can think of is, hmms, i shall blog about this this thisthisthis.but when i'm finally online i, FORGET, all i wanted to rant about. isn't that depressing:(

so let's be random.

well, HAHAHAHA! my BRUDDER doesn't know my blog yet. not really very funny is it? ha! the thing is, I KNOW HIS BLOG! so i can read his bollock but he can't read mine. i can tease and taunt and slander and blaspheme him about his daily HAPPENINGS. hurhurhur, so while my conscience hasn't pricked me to realisation that it's a unkind thing to do, ENJOY life's few 'pleasures'

and i can't find the books in the booklist to do the book reviews! i went to the national library, but there wasn't any. hmms, unbelievable huh? but yeap, i could find the author's works, just not the ones with the required title. so heck, what could i do? might as well get an author you like and write the review based on the excuse that i couldn't find the book. smart right, sometimes i impress myself:D

BTW, I SAW MRS OW IN HER CAR SHE WAVED AT ME SHE WAS WEARING HUGE BLACK SUNGLASSES ONES THAT COVER ALMOST HALF YOUR FACE AND ARE SO IN NOW I COULDN'T RECOGNISE HER SO COULD ONLY STARE BLANKLY WHILE SHE DID THIS HALF WAVE HALF FLY-SWATTING ACTION AT HER WINDOW. took a while to register who the h- was that, sorry.

what else what else, my life isn't that boring!

OKAY, EITHER I HAVE SHORT TERM MEMORY OR MY LIFE IS BORING YOU CHOOSE:(

2005-10-28T14:18:00.000+08:00

Miss Independent, Miss Self-Sufficient
Miss Keep-Your-Distance
Miss Unafraid, Miss Out-of-My-Way
Miss Don't-Let-a-Man-Interfere (no)
Miss On-Her-Own, Miss Almost-Grown
Miss Never-Let-a-Man-Help-Her-Off-Her-Throne

So by keeping her heart protected
She'd never ever feel rejected
Little Miss Apprehensive
Said ooh, she fell in love

What is this feelin' takin' over?
Thinkin' no one could open the door
Surprise--it's time
To feel what's real
What happened to Miss Independence?
No longer need to be defensive
Goodbye, old you
When love is true

Miss Guarded-Heart, Miss Play-it-Smart
Miss If-You-Want-to-Use-That-Line-You-Better-Not-Start (no)
She didn't want to end up jaded
And this miss decided not to miss out on true love
So by changing her misconceptions
She went in a new direction
And found inside she felt a connection
She fell in love

When Miss Independence walked away
No time for love that came her way
She looked in the mirror and thought today
What happened to Miss No-Longer-Afraid?
But she miscalculated
It took some time for her to see
How beautiful love could truly be
No more talk of why can't that be me
I'm so glad I fin'lly see

2005-10-25T19:24:00.000+08:00

"Uncle, two prawn mee"
"Okay, four dollars, can take change yourself?"
"Can, see, six dollars change."
"Okay, thank you ah! And paiseh, can take yourself? No helper!"
"Can, can, thankyou."

prawn mee uncle multitasks,
cooking his yellow noodles springy and tender
prawn fresh and good
soup is flavorful
and at the same time stooping over to the basin to wash bowls
he is just about one of the most efficient workers here
a one-man stall
and service is just as good.

i went home thinking about the tekka prawn mee uncle
he has a standard,
his food must be good,
no compromise or else his customers wont come.
so he trains himself to be an expert

and i thought, here i am
with all the comforts an average family provides,
aircon available and what-not
yet im producing results with no standard at all

so, the contrast just hit me right in the face
what have i been doing?

2005-10-11T20:46:00.000+08:00

WHOOO.
FYEs are finally over
went t town with delia felly amandazheng samlim joanne
sheesh, it was crammed full with crescentians
at almost every turn you see the yellow-turquiose uniform
neoprints were really weird,
considering i havent taken them for almost a year?

still,
what people say about the worryings' over with the end of exams?
BULL-
it dosen't cease.
it just GROWS till you get ure results
after each playing session is an aftermath of heightened anxiety and tension
what if i get retained? what if i fail? what if etceras.

shld i get a tagboard.
dunch know where i'll put it.
north east south west northeast southeast southwest northwest
ooh, the multitude of choices i have
but none really looks good on this blogskin
nadah.

doing the book on revelation now.
so kinda looking for this book called The Left Behind
or something, fiction of course
someone said it was interesting but spoooky
i mean its like being abandoned on a doomed island
left on a ship which is about to sink.
ah, shall find out more.

I Will Always Love You

If I should stayI would only be in your way
So I'll go, but I know I'll think of you every step of the way

I will always love you
I will always love you

Bitter sweet memories
That is all I'm taking with me
So goodbye, please don't cry
We both know I'm not what you need

I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you dreamed of
And I wish you joy and happiness
But above all this I wish you love

2005-09-27T19:06:00.000+08:00

"How do you divide your love among four kids, a husband, and a dog?"
"i don't divide it, i multiply it."

have decided to endear myself to petrina
she's so smart
i looked into her file and was stunned
so this is how a smart person's file looks like
neat tidy clean (even her handwriting looks intelligent)

hmphs.

im still not working hard enough
have tons of revision to do

oh, and xy says to play bball after FYEs
oohhoo, grreeeaatt.
looking forward to it

each moment i think of the dreaded FYEs
the deeper i fall into the pit of unrest
im tempted to commit a sin right now
uttering vulgarities.

SH-
FU-
BLO-

but,
out of good fear obedience and love for God
i shall keep myself pure.

what a -.

2005-09-17T13:07:00.000+08:00

nothing much,
only to remind everyone to study
for the dreaded final year exams.

sheesh,
i don't think im ready.

good luck mates!

2005-09-09T18:29:00.000+08:00

DARN.

ANOTHER BAD HAIRCUT

WHAT CAN I DO MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.

SHUCKS.

2005-08-31T17:24:00.000+08:00

what do you call a female papaya?
a mamaya.

okay, it's a weak joke,
but it got me laughing all day.

shall post sarah oh's lyrics soon
i like her voice,
it's strong but not overpowering,
does thou agree?

but for now, it's just this.

how could you say what's wrong with me when we all know the problems with you you act like you're cool like you're the belle of the ball but i tell you you're nothing to me nothing nothing at all cos i know you're lost and you can't find yourself underneath all that facade is just an empty shell you're pitiful you act like everything's okay but i know you're just an insecure lil girl you act like you're cool like you're well above but deep down under you're drowning in your world of lies how can i felp if you're only gonna act never showing yourself keep pretending you're living in your dreams won't be long till i give up penetrating through the mist trying so hard to grip the truth inside

2005-08-24T19:22:00.000+08:00

2005-08-24T18:36:00.000+08:00

proud thou is not of thy offer;
thankful, yes;
but proud thou never shalt be!

i'm finally seeing improvements in my work.
thank God for daddy mommy and korkor
they've sacrificed so much for me,
time effort saliva dinners peace
now i really appreciate what i've been given
shall work hard to make them proud:)

eating a delicious muffin now,
it's got walnuts in it,
it tastes sweet,
ahh.

delia is sick.
having a runny nose.
haha, so worried abt mr loh for what,
it's a valid reason!
get well soon:)

BONG.

2005-08-15T17:28:00.000+08:00

i've always thought i had big problems like homework, school, teachers, etc. but seriously, when you see some prople who are blind, disabled or lame; yet still have the courage to smile and say 'i'm happy, i'm alright'. it really silences me, and makes me thank God for giving me a working body, and a happy family. you don't need a model-type gorgeous body, you don't need lots of money. but usually after understanding all these do we really stop our extravagant spending on branded goods and expensive cuisine?

i think when you are blessed by Him, it is for you to be a lessing to others.

hmms, watched signs on ch 5 ystd.
are you the type of person who experiences a good thing and is convinced there is someone out of the universe watching over you, or do you think it is all purely coincidental?
something along that lines bah

been eating lots of chicken with delia lately
oof, we gonna get fat mannn.
too lazy to put my friendster pic, hahas

2005-08-12T17:39:00.000+08:00

so it's four more subjects left,
we gotta work hard this weekend

oh, www.thespookshow.com
for anyone who's interested.

huuuuxuuu.
PRIVATEJOKE-

S T U D Y S T U D Y S T U D Y

2005-08-03T18:27:00.000+08:00

when the going gets hard,
rest but dont you s t o p.

can i make it to the end,
i have yet to know
so scary;(

i had this dream,
all the old memories,
found out.
i have changed but i'm still the same person.
old habits die hard,
i still have them.

to be like ying-ying,
wanting to be found-

2005-07-23T17:56:00.000+08:00

hmms, haven't been good lately
not studying as hard as i promise too
well, learnt smth today
lets just say sometimes you need to know ure limits

with great power comes great responsibility,
can you manage that?

why ask why isn't he saved when you know the answer is why should anyone be saved? be careful what you ask for, realise the mercy He has shown.

meltdown-

randomly fascinating

2005-07-12T20:22:00.000+08:00

neway, im not gonna tell her

nothing leh, nothing to say.

haha,

'so random, i'd rather not think' - airen(:

what's with Pride? pride causes us to disobey Him, we think 'we don't need you in this area of life' and by doing that we sin against Him. we should always turn back to Him and His word.

i admit, guilty as charged.
i gotta try to melt down my pride,
to try to listen and obey.

there's no need to type the k or the w anymore i guess.

invisble strength

2005-07-01T21:33:00.000+08:00

it took a while to sink it;

YOU.

how could you say tht.

2005-07-01T20:25:00.000+08:00

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